Jealousy and Thoughtlessness 7/18/2003

You know how people can look at others with something, like being rich, and wonder what its like to live that life? I'm sure we've all done it with some attribute or another. I have, but I believe the attribute I look at is a different one than that of others. I look at joy. When I see a joyed person I always wonder what their life is like. What its like to have a heart that is light enough to carry. I guess I'll always wonder. Everyone says there will be something to joy me, someone sent to me. I will continue to wait. Always waiting. Waiting for something that won't come, wasting my time. An ending of existance is less time consuming, less consuming of a lot of things. It only need consume one bullet, or one rope, compared to all that would be wasted in the rest of that lifetime. Sounds like it twould be doing the world a favor to me. Whatever, I don't know. Did you really expect me to.

*Uneventfully sulks away*