Thinking 7/11/2004

I've been doing alot of thinking lately. I'll let you decide whether that's good or bad by the time I'm done with this. All I'll say is that I have a major migraine, I guess thats what happens when you let an idiot like me think for too long. I realize now that whatever higher being there is, along with creating love, created something called singularity, and also something called disgust, both of which are going to rule my life until the end of time. I'll never be with anybody and I don't care. I don't want to bring that upon anybody. Nobody you hear me? Which means if you're blind to not run away from me when you see me then don't bother approaching. I'm tired of all this! ALL OF IT! Im toeing the line of death and thats even harder with only one foot to stand on now. Hateful hateful life I lead. I always had the idea that people disliked me, and now I've got a few to prove they hate me, and they want me dead almost as much as I do. This stupid life controls me and it keeps me miserable. I hate misery, yet I have few days without it. Maybe I'll just use my cruches to stage an accident in the street, and I don't want anybody to try to talk me out of it, and don't come to me with all this pity talk, if you want to say how stupid I am for my feelings then leave it on the corkboard. Ill think about reading them. *pants and grimaces at grammatical mistakes so commonly made in anger* By the way, you figure out if its your fault, don't ask me, because I really don't know whose it is. It's probably all mine.

*crutches away from the cyber seive, now darkened with moronic thoughts*